Grateful

I have been extremely blessed in my life. I've been thinking about things lately and how there have been so many blessings given to me without me knowing the importance of them at the time they were given. For instance, when I met my future husband, I had no idea of the significance of our meeting. I thought he was a nice guy who was ingeniously smart and knew a lot of interesting (and rather odd) facts about all sorts of things. I didn't know he was going to be the father of my children or that I would experience the most excruciating pain and the most exquisite love with him. But the Lord knew it. He knew me and Nathan well enough to know that once we made that decision to be together forever, that it would be real and tangible and that we wouldn't let anything stand in the way of our happiness together. I'm glad He knew.




One day when I learned that my very good friend was pregnant and I decided I wanted a baby, I had no idea that going through the process of creating a life, growing a child and becoming a mother would be one of the hardest and best things I would ever do. I had no idea that making this decision would change me so completely that I would hardly remember my previous life. But the Lord knew it. He knew me well enough to know that I would love this little one with so much devotion and ferocity and loyalty that it would change me and make me strive to be a better person. I'm glad He knew.




I also had no idea in my life that learning to use this program called Photoshop would open up a whole new world of possibilities for me. I was mundanely introduced to it at my studio job. At that time, I had no idea that this would turn into an all-consuming way of life for me, creating and fixing and painting and retouching and making beautiful things. But the Lord knew it. He knew me well enough to know that I would love this type of work so much and would be able to do so many things with the talent that he had given me. I'm glad He knew.




Looking back on past experiences in my life, I know that the Lord has had me in His arms and He has known what would work out best for me. He still knows it now. I just need to trust in Him and do what He asks of me. He knows. And I'm glad.