Just checking in

Life is just about waiting around here. Waiting for baby to come, waiting for the point where I can walk around the house again and not feel like every part of me aches. Man, pregnancy is tough on ya! :) I know the time is going to go by faster than I think, so I'll be positive.

I've been thinking of some projects that I want to tackle while I have some time off with the baby and while my mom is here. I'm bummed that it will only be for 9 days, but I'll take what I can get. Plus it's her very first visit to our California place, so that will be a lot of fun to show her our house and get her help in decorating it. Because heaven knows I can't do it by myself! I get too many ideas and not enough coordination with them. So maybe a second pair of eyes will help. Gosh, thinking about it, I'm more excited to have my mom come out than I realized! :) I haven't seen her in several months, so it will be nice.

Other things that have been on my mind lately include when in the world I'm ever going to get my almost-three-year-old potty trained! I am so tired of changing big stinky diapers and I know it's only going to get worse once I have two to contend with! So that's one of the challenges for this year, getting him potty trained.

Of course I'll be waiting until after the baby comes, since that will be change enough for him. In fact, that's the big reason we didn't try it before the baby came, because I knew moving would be a big enough adjustment without having that added to it. And I have to admit, I'm nervous with how he's going to react to his brother. He's been pretty clingy lately and I just hope that we can help him adjust as best as possible.

I've also had this hankering to make a little mini-studio upstairs in our office, which I think will be of great use to me when our baby gets here, so that I can do some fun newborn shoots. I didn't really know what I was doing with Eli, and was so out of it that I didn't realize I should have taken more photos! :) But this time around I'll be more prepared, with better lighting and lots of time to take good pictures. Besides, there's nothing more fun than practicing on someone who doesn't automatically run once the camera is even pulled out (ahem, Eli!!). Can't wait to have some fun with him.

I've decided that I'm not really going to be doing New Years' resolutions this year. Mainly because I'm horrible at sticking to them, and because I feel like when I take on something like that and fail at it, it makes me feel worse than if I had not done it at all. :) So I'm just going to take my days as they come, enjoy life, and try REALLY hard not to beat myself up for things that don't get finished or a messy house or kids who have dirty fingernails. (Because good moms don't let their children get dirty fingernails, right?) I'm just focusing on doing the best I can with as little worrying about what other people think of me as possible. And that is going to be tough for me, I can tell you that right now. I have a long history of caring deeply about what other people think of me.